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College Senior in Media Communications. True Crime Fan (but that’s not all I write about).

In some ways, my first stories on Medium were a lot better.

June 30th marked my one-year anniversary of joining the Medium Partner Program. And with that, inevitably lead to a lot of reflection on my progress.

For 6 of those 12 months, I have been able to break that top 6% of writers that earned $100+ with some relative ease. And from looking at my stats, it’s clear the months I made less than a hundred bucks were the months I hardly wrote anything.

However, I owe a lot of my progress to my first few months of blogging. I was an enthusiastic well-oiled machine. In my first full month (July…

Money is going to be the very thing that kills us.

Recently, I read Jessica Wildfire’s terrifying article about the future of our planet if we as a society continue to let climate change take its course.

What made it terrifying? Because it’s accurate and we’re already seeing the early signs of it. And if you’re in need of a wake-up call for climate change, I highly recommend reading this.

I haven’t been able to think about anything else since reading it. I’m almost 22, I still have so much life left to live. Now I’m left wondering if it’s even realistic for me (or anyone in my generation) to have children in 10–15 years.

What kind of world would I be leaving them behind in? A world that will inevitably collapse around them. …

Casual hookups have slowly taken the place of dating.

One of the biggest pieces of advice I’ve heard in the dating world is if you struggle with dating, your standards need to be lowered. But how can you have high standards when dating barely exists anymore?

Dating hasn’t come as easy for me over the last few years. During my sophomore year of college, I was assaulted by two different men (one being my boyfriend at the time) and was left feeling as if I wasn’t worthy of love or using the word ‘no’.

But, that’s a story for another day.

Since that experience, I’ve started setting boundaries with…

Creative burnout is real and I’m still experiencing it.

The lack of content from me lately is not just a coincidence. This past month, I have truly felt like my brain has been broken. The writing bug has gone nowhere near me. My creativity has completely run dry and nothing is inspiring me to write anything.

My Medium drafts are filled with bits and pieces of paragraphs that I’ve failed to spread out to a bigger article. My brain feels like a computer hard drive that’s too full and leaves your computer’s performance to slowly die.

My writing routine every day for the last two months has gone something…

It has brought up some broken childhood dreams.

The past few months, I’ve been going through an interesting transition, to say the least. At the beginning of this seemingly endless pandemic, my mom approached my older brother and me and told us since we were all in quarantine, we might as well be productive.

So, we got a dumpster and purged the shit out of our house.

We got rid of everything around our house we've been telling each other for years we’ve been wanting to get rid of. Anything that couldn’t be donated was dramatically thrown off our back porch into the giant rusty pit we rented…

From the perspective of the annoyed roommate.

It’s safe to say my roommate situation hasn’t been great this year. The chaos of leaving and returning to college all through a pandemic is already intense enough, but the universe has decided to graciously give me the wonderful gift that is shitty roommates.

Yes, bad roommates. We’ve all had one at one point or another, and if you never have, either you’re incredibly lucky or no one has told you the truth yet.

I was assigned random roommates at the beginning of my third year in university. Upon moving into my college apartment, things seem to be cordial and…

A poem about heartbreak

Wide awake and nauseous,

I don’t even want to be here.

The scratchy beard and warmth of another I once craved

no longer had value

because it wasn’t you.

write a letter and burn it,

throw away his shirts,

talk to other people,

none of it fucking works

because you can’t manipulate the universe.

Instead, I spend hours

pushing it to the back of my mind

with wine and weed.

It’s a lazy attempt of walking away from a flame no one fully put out.

It’s a parasite that eats my soul alive.

I still adore you,

there’s nothing under…

Here’s why I’m continuing to publish on my own schedule.

I’m sure you’ve read about whether or not you should write and publish every day on Medium with a million individual spins on it. More specifically, you’ve probably come across dozens of articles about the benefits that come with publishing an original story every single day.

However, I don’t see many articles arguing against publishing daily, ultimately it seems to be encouraged if you’re capable of doing so.

In fact, it seems as if there’s always someone talking about how it boosts your creativity, speeds up your freelance career, makes you a better writer, blah blah blah.

I don’t disagree…

They’ve been there for us when they may not have even known.

Do you consistently listen to the same podcast every week because you like the hosts?

Do you check your YouTube subscription box daily in hopes of seeing a new video pop up from your favorite YouTuber?

Is there an influencer you follow on every social media platform?

Chances are if you have a smart device and an internet connection, you may consistently support content from the same people, and develop a kind of admiration for them over time.

Content creators are everywhere on the internet, each with their own communities and audiences personal to them. Technically, I’m a content creator…

You can do these today

For several years now, I’ve been doing everything I can to achieve the closest possible thing I can to have peace of mind. I wouldn’t say I’m 100% there yet, but I’m most certainly comfortable with myself and the presence I give off to people.

And it’s great, I feel so much more free and happier.

While I’m not entirely sure why I’m just now acknowledging the changes I’ve actively made in my life. …

Nicole Kenney

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